It's just too pathetic.
So with that little thought not being said, here I am!
And since I haven't told anyone I'm blogging, I guess it doesn't really matter. Is it silly to have a blog if no one reads it? Maybe someday, I'll share with my friends. I'm sure they have nothing better to do that read my crazy, sporadic musings.
Actually, I'm trying to get on the ball and lose some weight. And if I publish pictures and results, it may help me be more accountable. To be honest, I am extremely unhappy and disgusted with myself. I could just cry when I see a picture of me. Who/what have I become? All I know is that I almost can't stand myself and have to make changes. Starting today, here's to my new weight loss journey ... and ups and downs and struggles and triumphs. And I will triumph ... even 25 lbs would be a blessing, although, I would really like to lose about 80 lbs altogether. I just re-read that sentence and realized that 80 lbs is 20 lbs more than Eric weighs! Oh, to carry around 80 less lbs! "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Phil 4:13
Tonight I made Cabbage soup to jump start the new me. (Cabbage Soup is low sod. beef broth, low sod. stewed tomatoes, celery, onion, cabbage, and water) I actually like it pretty well. Lots of flavor.
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A special moment happened today also. It was a quiet moment, but one that will be important for the rest of Eric's life, I hope. I was able to buy a new Bible for Eric today. He has the engraved Precious Moments Bible from my mom and dad which is special, but he needed one he could USE ... READ ... STUDY ... LEARN ...WEAR OUT! We were in the Paradise Christian Bookstore and I asked him if he would like one. We looked at 3 different Bibles, and finally we happy to buy a Bible just for Boys! I made sure he knew the Bible is for everyone, but this particular one had extra lessons and devotions that boys would like best. We also bought a new cover for it that is easy to carry. It was a very special moment. I want more than anything for Eric to love God and want to learn more about him and obey him ... at all costs. He just learned the Bible Pledge in Word of Life also ... I pledge allegiance to the Bible, God's Holy Word. I will make it a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. I will hide its words in my heart, that I might not sin against God. Amen.
